Writing

Miscellaneous writing about life, now, paying attention, and ptsd, and the amazing projects i've shared with amazing people.

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give, 03, Mar
Wherein i am sad, and Beloved
postlude, 17, Feb
do it well, 17, Feb
first glimpse, 17, Feb

give


So suffering a bodymind experience of loss. the details of course are huge, and in retrospect tiny enough that getting through is possible. it's odd to feel so sad, and so blessed at the same time.

my entire bodymind is sad, my soul is light, and Light. we are ...

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postlude


Ps

leave yourself as little refuse as possible, drop no trace if possible except those ripples you intend to create, like soundwaves vibrating through energy ponds, clouds across the watertop.

stand tall and open, fully present to each moment, and in every blessed moment you can, do only what is ...

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do it well


and then?

i have allowed, through real and habitual need to survive, smallness and separation to be seen as real, and it's not, b/c any sense my ego has that i think i am, is not, b/c i am temporary. the ego self housed in this bodymind ...

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first glimpse


eyes open

i am ok, safe ap, decent,

i am tripping hard on what comes after full on survival, b/c that's all i've known this past few years, and when i was younger, and yet i feel i am moving past that. perhaps others are to at ...

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bodymind needs


it feels simpler.

OK, mind screams don't become poor! Bodymind flinches, looks up from a moment of well earned rest and says shit!

Bodymind wants to keep resting; i am weary. Brain won't allow us to become poor, b/c that will be worse than stepping up and ...

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