in our last episode, we were recounting the extreme totality of the flash back experience i have 14feb2015 west of chicago. i was 19 again, fleeing, always scared, driving, scanning the horizons and sky about for haven, safety, a corner i could defend myself in.
i'm 51 ...
more ...space is the final frontier, whether you go in our out.
ps, anxiety is depression on speed, and i can't even quantify how much i crave spaciousness. my whole body does, like i need a huge container to safely decompress from ptsd in.
thing is, though, knowing that ...
more ...cocaine : this is a drug of celebration. you have money, you have friends, you have momentum, your shit doesn't stink. you want more of everything, ravenous and greedy bastard that you are that day. give me more of all this: that is hard to replace, so look ...
more ...ok, i promised details. here's my take on different substances that people have experienced throughout the history of humanity.
plus, some animals get high, fermented honey for bears or beer for well-raised pigs.
[editorial note: not all this is from direct experience; plus, if any of this ...
more ...i know it's not universally so, but many of us, myself at times, lump all addiction together. gambling addiction, sex addiction, pill addiction, food addiction, being an addict addiction.
for example, someone interested in a jagged, dangerous high might choose white powders. There's zero way for ...
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