i think it's quite likely so.

my parents had no idea what was coming my way after the robbery; none. it has never seemed blame-worthy, b/c it's not a trait or skill that exists, i would guesstimate, in more than a third of the population. there are ...

the night is

and so am i, still.

i take stock, assessing my daily toil.

did i show up to Love today? actually, i did. so i got lucky to be writing this now.

was i kind? yes.

did i feel joy? luckily, yes!

was i decent to my body ...

consequences and implications

Of course there is a cost to all this post-traumatic reverberation.

There is consequence and implication to every action, every thought.

Everything willful obeys Newton's law, that every action has an equal and opposite re-action—that's amazing in real life.

time spent

i txt ...

survival

survival is a beautiful word, and mere survival is vastly under-appreciated... for me at least, by those i've met who've never been hair-trigger from death, who've never been thrown from sleep and violated in nightmares.

mere survival is bodymind living to take another breath—celebrate that ...

what bothers me

we'll keep this brief, b/c beyond me, who even slightly cares...

• i am saddened by how much time it takes for me to get ready how much time i need to get my bearings, my stuff, my plan in place. no more alacrity.
• i'm ...