the day hits

sometimes it hits hard, a 3am nightmare contorted into its own pain, vigil from then till dawn, jagged sleep broken by 6am mechanisms—a half step behind the rest of humanity before eyes are fully open. None of this forgives the day's duties, of course, nor ...

the mind responds

That's mind's job, to make sense of all this, the thoughts and sensations, feelings and intuitions of the flesh and brain.

Mind comes after.

trippy morning, now, that afternoon.

orienting.

have metaphorical pen & ink at hand, beverages and tabasco, a hat if i get cold.

1. i feel more grounded than at 8:11am today

2. i worked for that

here's what i did (and here's me feeling blessed and grateful for the privilege ...

trippy morning, tina came down a few minutes before time to get up, i made room.

she wants me to be better which is of course lovely. she talks about my writing, how it's way helping her understand me, and she so wants it not to be the way ...

the body remembers

the body retains some from each impact w/ traumatic energy.

the body is wounded by every assault—be it from another day of extreme poverty or straight fist-to-face violence. The body knows first.

The body experiences trauma before my brain can stimulate muscles fast enough to dodge ...