the body remembers

the body retains some from each impact w/ traumatic energy.

the body is wounded by every assault—be it from another day of extreme poverty or straight fist-to-face violence. The body knows first.

The body experiences trauma before my brain can stimulate muscles fast enough to dodge ...

stand down

in well functioning humanity, the pause is a normal part of every week.

inside ptsd, a pause is so random as to never inspire belief it might come again.

Pause, reflect,

take stock, orient

slow, breathe in. That makes sense. Breathe out.

Good, again.

living

I know from ...

so few hours

The days seem so short. I mourn when evening comes, when this one precious day closes up for the night, and the shadows grow quiet.

Sure, nightmares may come but daymares come too, so it's not that. It's each day healthy, each day alive and ...

time shifts and small scale

what caught my mind's eye today was the notion of being asked what i want for dinner?

This was the drama playing out in my mind, 11:45 wednesday morning.

Not only did i have no idea, i couldn't even entertain the question ...

time shifts and exec functioning

tru dat!

Executive Functioning. Right! What a lovely pair of words. It conveys such moneyed gravitas in the face of storms of commerce and money shifting. Alas.

I have diminished executive functioning these days. There, i said it. It's like admitting to a key ...