to be clear

there are at least n levels of desire

desire

this is small d desire, and it corresponds to the ongoing needs of the bodymind. this includes lower chakra stuff like food, sex, refulgence, dancing, and the like. this is divine and lovely stuff, but much of what ...

quite simply

it feels like i'm getting closer to the StillPoint, like not just for visiting, but for dwelling in perpetuity.

OK, tbh, when i write about this it's a high water mark, a distillation of zillions of daily moments of practice—breathing, noticing, grounding, cultivating strength.

Ouf ...

i am adept at holding space for big things.

at present, life feels very homeless, and quite unsettled.

but i know that it is i that is unsettled,

the i that mistakes 3d and 4th dimension ripples for Eternal events

temporary experiences for endless

and minor interpretations for wisdom.

within ...

breathe, even when it's windy

most likely, this form of instability will not last indefinitely, b/c that is the nature of changing'ness

what it is forcing me to do is ground in right now, and do my best to make sure right now is solid, and Love-connected ...

k, breathe

for real with me,

we are here

i am as present as i have ever been

just breathe with me. two breaths,

i get that tears are close

i get the sore, i so do.

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we are getting close, though,

traversing giant ion storms

i am well aware ...