where do i fit

it's been a long time since i felt home, a sense of place on this dear Earth. the deeper i go into my own adventure of living, the more i follow the longings of my soul, the more i feel displaced from among the living ...

long version

what's peril? peril is you're going to take a beating.

plunging in contains that.

but first a step back, so i can orient myself in these words.

why am i here? so far as i can ascertain, i'm here to be here. i'm here ...

breathe

So here’s what it feels like I know.

There is a journey in, where the needs of bodymind are paramount.

This is a journey to the Stillpoint at the very center of our being.

This journey is a voyage to our own truest authenticity, to that truthfulness that ...

once

so god planted the tree, the one w/ the apple in that one origin story, a particular couple tempted to leave the eternal garden of now—the one that exists before and after curiosity—and replace it w/ a hunger to know, to see what if...

god wanted to ...

just saying.

of course i can't believe that—not for long at least—that we're that fucked. this place is Amazing, Earth. are you kidding?! look around.

it is only smog and smug blindness within that keeps me from seeing how truly astonishing all this really Is. for ...