What is staggering, is how true the details are, ptsd that is... triggered state.

Detail: rage. fuck rage.

Nasty energy that.

Not rage that emanates from me, but rage visited upon me.

OK, i bow. I accept. Rage exists. Rage writ large is nazi germany, is my lai vietnam, is ...

Everything comes w/ a price. Everything costs something, is an immediate transaction. What will it cost me to say 'yes', or to hesitate and hope for more information, or to say no and keep moving rather than risk an inaccurate assessment of the risk/reward of whatever is being offered ...

What is staggering, is how true the details are, ptsd that is... triggered state.

The basic pattern for the body's response to trauma, at least in part—at least how i know it—is this:

1. try to get away, duck, flee!!
2. freeze/fight back, fight back or freeze.

That ...

What is staggering, is how true the details are, ptsd that is... triggered state.

Detail: it's grueling. I estimate it takes, or takes away, at least 90 minutes per day. In addition to that, more sleep is required, and the penalty for getting too little rest is double what ...

What is staggering, is how true the details are, ptsd that is... triggered state.

I careened into, or it careened into me, rage, decades old rage that had been persisting like a well-fueled fire does in the presence of dry trees, for generations.

There are many of these streams in ...