one hour


trippy morning, tina came down a few minutes before time to get up, i made room.

she wants me to be better which is of course lovely. she talks about my writing, how it's way helping her understand me, and she so wants it not to be the way ...

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inside ptsd, body knows


the body remembers

the body retains some from each impact w/ traumatic energy.

the body is wounded by every assault—be it from another day of extreme poverty or straight fist-to-face violence. The body knows first.

The body experiences trauma before my brain can stimulate muscles fast enough to dodge ...

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inside ptsd, body knows, part one


the body remembers

the body retains some from each impact w/ traumatic energy.

the body is wounded by every assault—be it from another day of extreme poverty or straight fist-to-face violence. The body knows first.

The body experiences trauma before my brain can stimulate muscles fast enough to dodge ...

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survive vs heal


it's not more time to heal, its finally time to heal. surviving is different than healing. first survive, then try to heal. basic stuff.

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inside ptsd, the addiction episode


in general, part one, b/c there's always more

where one of the main characters—in character—discusses his or her understanding of 'addiction', in parts one to many, b/c that's the only way we could send it off.

rule one

i am not qualified to speak ...

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