temporary obliteration of self

as noted elswhwere, [surviving mindfulness] one of the challenges of ptsd + mindfulness, is that some days suck. or rather, the day is fine, lovely in fact, like today, 79 degrees and flowers and trees in refulgent expression of their beautiful lives.

but me, i, us, the ...

it feels simpler.

OK, mind screams don't become poor! Bodymind flinches, looks up from a moment of well earned rest and says shit!

Bodymind wants to keep resting; i am weary. Brain won't allow us to become poor, b/c that will be worse than stepping up and ...

now what?

so you plunged in, or i did, repeatedly. now what?

is this wilder?

could be

lots could be, a vast variety of possibles. choose wisely.

go in first

the going in phase, the inward journey, is one of knowing and meeting needs, or mourning the unmeeting of those ...

now is fast

ok, you get 3,500 ft/s to not only decide, but move and since we're talking 1/8 of an inch, you don't have much time. we're talking one second divided by 3500 feet divided by 12 inches divided by 8 (the inverse ...

plunge in, when...

i started thinking about wild, and i realized it's wild that has served to help pull me out of this darkness, like a magnet or a dry towel pulling moisture off one's skin, or like the sun evaporating away only the most useless pieces and ...