Acceptance is a process. I think i wrote that before. What i know understand about that starts with a feeling like a slow motion waves gently slamming into me, from the front usually and from the soles of me feet to above my head.

steps to accepting something possibly unpleasant ...

don't overpromise

It's not all instantly perfect b/c i breathe in attentively on my cigarette break. It's not suddenly awe-strikingly beautiful b/c i sit in meditation twelve times a week for three months. But it helps.

It way helps. In fact, it's the practice ...

the mind responds

That's mind's job, to make sense of all this, the thoughts and sensations, feelings and intuitions of the flesh and brain.

Mind comes after.

a preamble

So herein begins section two of this series of essays.

It's section two b/c something changed this past weekend.

I had an experience of self from when i was 30 years younger, 19 y/o, midwest united states, somewhere btw late Nov and Feb, cold, very ...

trippy morning, now, that afternoon.

orienting.

have metaphorical pen & ink at hand, beverages and tabasco, a hat if i get cold.

1. i feel more grounded than at 8:11am today

2. i worked for that

here's what i did (and here's me feeling blessed and grateful for the privilege ...