what bothers me

we'll keep this brief, b/c beyond me, who even slightly cares...

• i am saddened by how much time it takes for me to get ready how much time i need to get my bearings, my stuff, my plan in place. no more alacrity.
• i'm ...

the day hits

sometimes it hits hard, a 3am nightmare contorted into its own pain, vigil from then till dawn, jagged sleep broken by 6am mechanisms—a half step behind the rest of humanity before eyes are fully open. None of this forgives the day's duties, of course, nor ...

to recap

it's still true though. time is precious or it's nothing

marqpdx [4:59 PM] both, i guess are valid

there has been a rash of writing this past 8 weeks, yay, and i'm super glad to be putting words down. it's a huge part ...

to recap

in our last episode, we were recounting the extreme totality of the flash back experience i have 14feb2015 west of chicago. i was 19 again, fleeing, always scared, driving, scanning the horizons and sky about for haven, safety, a corner i could defend myself in.

i'm 51 ...

space

space is the final frontier, whether you go in our out.

ps, anxiety is depression on speed, and i can't even quantify how much i crave spaciousness. my whole body does, like i need a huge container to safely decompress from ptsd in.

thing is, though, knowing that ...